its the same thing with us
it never fails
an argument
turns into the end
and we agree to come back the next minute
and that week break period where
you hardly talk to me at all
me trying so hard to
just get you to call
and everytime its the same
like i keep trying to pull blood from the same vein
but eventually i know you will become drained
and i'll be left alone
feelings of love unchanged
you won't come back
every time, every day
but i just can't make
myself change
not for you or for anyone
even though i know it can't stay this way.

To me, love is equivalent to power. The power to change yourself, to change someone else, to change the world. Love is the catalyst for change. Love might as well be power. The only difference is power can be abused and make someone headstrong. Love can never be abused. Love is all knowing, love is unyielding, and unconditional.

I hope love saves the world someday. I believe it is the only thing that can.

Love conquers all.

I miss him. It all happened tooo fast.

i wish i could not care about you, but i still love you and that makes everything so much worse.

Goals.

1. Work out. Run everyday. Get off my lazy ass and do something!!

2. Get a job. Soon!

3. Quit smoking. Cigarettes.

4. Stronger relationships.

5. Dye hair.

Acheive by: The end of the summer.

Everytime we kiss it feels like the first time again.
I love you too much to let you go.
Everything is gonna be alright.

" I live my life as a thug but girl you know I need ya
each and every women that i meet damn near wanna be ya
it ain't no limit to what we could do
holla if ya hear me girl you know I'm comin' through
I'm out here on the grind livin' my life fast
and if you really love me lay some blankets on the grass
I know the way I live make you wanna cry
but you know I gotta hustle that's the way I survive
it ain't no changin' me but me and you could make it
let's fix a plate of ghetto love with grits eggs and bacon
let me wipe away your ghetto tears misery and pain
all you need is a passport I got the hookup and a private plane"

 JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn it really wasn't worth all that.

 I need to get my shit straight... I need to stop harassing my boyfriend who I love too much to lose... I need to spend more time with my mom who I love too much to lose as well... I need to stop doing stupid stuff that is gonna get me in trouble.

School is almost out and I want a change.

1. Calvin I am so sorry I have been such a bitch. I guess I'm just so afraid to lose you to someone else that it is hard for me to trust you, especially since I lost you once to her. But I know you love me and I know you won't do anything to hurt me. You are my baby, my everything. These past months feel like years.. I really could be with you forever. I can't predict our future, but I can act differently in order to make it a better one. I'll always care about you.

2. Mom I know you care about me and love me, but accidents happen. I'm sorry they have to happen to me but you have got to learn to forgive me and not hold things over my head. I love you so much, you are my best friend. You always will be, but there is a point where you stop' being my friend and start being my mom. I need to learn to accept that I can't have any kind of freedom I want and that you just want the best for me. Because that's what all parents want.

I want to be happy.

 Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as lovers can, you know
Yeah we're feeling so good

Pickin’ up things we shouldn’t read
It looks like the end of history as we know
It’s just the end of the world

Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as love, you could, you can

Into a place where thoughts can bloom
Into a room where it's nine in the afternoon
And we know that it could be
And we know that it should
And you know that you feel it too
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon

And your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
just the way that we do
When it's nine in the afternoon

Your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good

Back to the street
Down to our feet
Losing the feeling of feeling unique
Do you know what I mean?

Back to the place
Where we used to say
Man it feels good to feel this way
Now I know what I mean

Back to the street, back to the place,
Back to the room where it all began, hey
Back to the room where it all began
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon

Your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
Just the way that we do
When it's nine in the afternoon

 I am gonna trust you. I won't get so mad at you anymore... please don't think i'm mad all the time...

what have i become? i'm not what i used to be and you know it and i know it...

i gotta change back to what you want
before i lose what i have worked so hard to get..

everyone knows i love you.

 i fly through trees while i wait for you to come
stars fall and burn holes
into my blanket
my friends are callin me with the news of the day
but my phone is on silent
i don't have much to say to anyone
i run quietly to wait for you
catching stars in my hair and leaves also
i wish i could keep going
i wish i could keep going....

 i miss my grandma :(

 thats my bust it baby

 everytime i come down
the hollow feeling comes back around
i feel empty and gone
a shell of what i could be
i take myself under
and rip my hair out at the roots
in frustration
i try too hard sometimes
to make things have worth in my life
i look too deep
take too much time
searching for meaning
always looking for a sign
disguising uncertainness
as philosophy
trying to explain every breath i breathe
everytime i come down
i want to cry
so i go again and again
til the well runs dry
hold my chin up high
because these mistakes i've made
too many times.

 i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you with my entire heart.

no one or nothing can change it.
so i accept it.

and keep lovin you

everyday i try  harder to fail harder
and the bruises get bigger every time
the way i handle this makes
me SICK 
the way i handled you
i the way i've done all the rest
i try hard too hard
and fall fast too fast
i fail hard.
everyday.